day 21 - self judgment

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for not writing instead of sitting down and simply writing as self support within self direction

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for not applying self forgiveness and thus go into my mind and feel bad about myself instead of stopping the thoughts and judgments and direct myself within and as self support as applying self forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to others in the group for not keeping up with them in the journey of life blogs and thus exist within a mind made competition, instead of seeing the self direction writing they are applying and equalize myself to them - no judgment needed, all required is to simply start writing

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed the comparison and competition I have been participating in to make me out as the ‘loser’ of these made up competitions I have created in my mind, and within already judging myself as the loser I do not push myself to participate and walk as I have already lost in my mind, instead of realizing this is not a competition and all are walking equally for and as self, thus to realize that I can in every moment change myself as the starting point of myself and start applying myself here for self, to stop the comparison and competition as I see it is counterproductive and is being used by me as an excuse to not even start and push myself due to having already failed

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to go on in my mind as back chat “I will write when I have time” or “I will start writing when I am at the farm” instead of taking the time here and applying myself. I forgive myself for not realizing the self dishonesty of procrastinating writing as self sabotage, creating more and more points to judge myself for later, instead of stopping all together and within breath starting fresh, as self support, here.

I forgive myself for not seeing that by judging myself I am creating a time loop of procrastinating my process application as self forgiveness due to the belief I have already failed within comparison/competition to other, and in turn creating a platform for myself to not stand up within and as myself and not take responsibility for myself and thus allow myself to continue as I have created myself as the mind, not considering the consequences of my actions/thoughts/reactions

I commit myself to stopping self judgment within and as breath and with the support of writing and self forgiveness as a tool to expose myself within self honesty, and to show myself the constructs and methods I have been using upon myself to keep me from actually seeing myself and thus not allowing myself to take responsibility

I commit myself to walking day by day, and within the daily walk to stop self judgment within and as breath whenever I see myself falling in the constructs/characters of self judgment.

I commit myself to when going into self judgment to write about it as self support in order to not allow it to direct me and to support myself to see the self sabotage I am participating in, in order to stop and stand as self direction and take responsibility for myself and who/what I have accepted and allowed myself to be/become so that I can change myself with aligning myself with what is best for all

I commit myself to use self judgment as a tool for self support through writing my experience and investigating how/when/why I am allowing self judgment to direct me, so that I can stop myself as the mind and direct myself as life within self trust as what is best for all