Friday, July 6, 2012
Posted by
Maya R
at
10:29 AM
Labels:
abuse,
desteni,
ego,
judgment,
manipulation,
postponment,
procrastination,
procrastinator,
self abuse,
self forgiveness,
self judgment,
self manipulation
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create myself
as the character of procrastinator
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to take
responsibility for myself within participating as the character of
procrastination and thus have allowed and accepted procrastination to exist
within myself and the world as myself
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I am
defined by this character of being a procrastinator, not realizing that I have
created myself as such and only through my allowance and accepted have I become
one and equal to this character
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live as the
character of procrastinator and through my acceptance of this character use it
as an excuse to not take self responsibility and apply myself within my world
effectively because I have believed and defined myself as procrastinator
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel trapped
in this character of procrastination, and thus have allowed myself to be
directed by it and within that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself to postpone things/activities due to believing I am a procrastinator and
thus have legitimacy to postpone because it is who I am. Not allowing myself to
see and realize that I am not in fact the character of procrastination and by accepting
and allowing myself exit as such a character I am re-creating it and
compounding the power it has on me, in other words, as long as I allow myself
to participate and play along within the character of procrastinator, I am
making it harder for me to see, realize and understand that it is not who I am
in fact, within participating more as the character of procrastination I am creating
more and more memories to then define as myself and to remind myself that I am
in fact a procrastinator
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use the
character of procrastination as an excuse to give up on myself before I even
start, within the manipulation of not leaving myself enough time to be
effective within my assignment/activities, and thus set myself for failure and mediocre
achievement, thus allowing the construct of mediocrity to exist within myself
and within the world as myself, not realizing that "shooting low" is
based in fear and thus I have been allowing fear to direct me through the
character of procrastination
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create myself as
the character of procrastination as a method to hide from myself the fear I allow
myself to experience when faced with assignments/activities I believe myself to
have difficulty with, and then within validating the character of "I am
not good at this" I create the procrastination character to make sure I actually
do a mediocre job, and not allow myself to do everything I could have done if I
had given myself the time to do things properly, within an idea time frame
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the character
of procrastination back up character to enforce other characters that are based
in fear/self-judgment/self-doubt
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support many other
characters that I have created as myself through the character of
procrastination
I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see realize and
understand that by participating in the character of procrastination I am
supporting all the other characters that I have created that are creating my
experience of failure/inadequacy/inferiority
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that by
participating in the character of procrastination I am leading the way before
me for self-judgment and thus self-abuse, within that I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to participate within the character of
procrastination within knowing as myself the path it leads and still allowing
myself to go down that path as a deliberate method to abuse myself, instead of
stopping myself within the understanding that the path of procrastination leads
to self-judgment as self-abuse and to stop myself within/as support of life
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stop the
character of procrastination because I actually don't want to take self
responsibility and having this character of procrastination as a support
character of the other self-sabotaging characters is the method I use to excuse
myself from actually living as self-responsibility, within the belief that I am
not cut out for it, I am not capable, because I am a procrastinator
I commit myself to stopping my participation within/as the character of
procrastinator, within the understanding that I am the creator of this
character, thus cannot be defined by it but instead have the power/ability to
stop my participation within/as it
I commit myself to seeing/investigating if/when I find myself participating
within/as the character of procrastination to from the investigation find and forgiving
myself for the reason/excuse I have given myself to procrastinate and to stop
myself within/as breath from then on if/when the reason come up
I commit myself to using the character of procrastination as a support
character to help me see what other character is actually hiding beneath the
procrastination character so I can once and for all get to the bottom of myself
as the characters I have allowed myself to exist as and have allowed myself to
lose myself within, in order to forgive myself for all the characters that I have
allowed myself to exist as and to let them go one by one so that I can stop myself
as an organic robot defined by the self created character, but rather to trust
myself to live as life, here within/as breath, not limited nor directed by
characters but actually living fully in every breath what is best for all life
I commit myself to supporting myself as life through the process of self
forgiveness as I free myself and let go one by one of all the characters I have
been participating with
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