Saturday, September 15, 2012
Continuing from my previous
blogs:
In this blog I will go into
more specify in regards to how I created myself as the weakness character, through
applying self-forgiveness and corrective statements on the points I opened up
in my previous blogs
When I experience myself
not wanting to do something, but do it anyway, I can become sluggish and drop
my shoulders and express myself physically as weak...
I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to do things within the self-belief as character
of "I don't want to do this", whereas within this character I allow
myself to go into self-victimization and as a victim see/perceive/express
myself as weak, instead of realizing that the experience of being weak is
created through the starting point of participating in the "I don't want
to do this" character, within this I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself to do things within participating within the idea/self-belief
that "I do not want to do this", instead of realizing that the
experience I have towards anything I do is representing who I am within the activity
and not the activity itself, thus I forgive myself for not accepting and
allowing myself to realize that when/as I am participating in activities as the
directive principle of myself within realizing/understanding why I am doing
what I am doing and thus deciding for myself to actually participate and do it,
I will support myself in not participating in the "I don't want to do
this" character and thus support myself to not go into the self-victimization,
and thus the experience of weakness that is the direct outflow.
I commit myself to do things
within a self-decision where I know why I am participating within/as the idea,
and thus do not allow myself to go into the "I don't what to do this"
character, within realizing that within self-direction I can stop doing any
activity I am doing thus can never really do anything "I don't want to
do" because anything I do is done by me.
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to manipulate myself into believing "I don't want to
do this" as a character of the mind, to create energy within myself as
inner conflict, while not realizing that anything I do is a doing of self, and
thus I stand within self-directive principle and decide within/as myself what
do and what not
I commit myself to stopping myself
as the character "I don't want to do this" within realizing the
deception of it, and the consequences of it as creating myself as the weak character
Also when I do something that I define as inferior, so I will do it,
to avoid conflict, but I will experience myself as weaker than the situation,
like I'm trapped in the situation/task and I have to do it quietly
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to define specific activities as inferior and thus when I participate
within/as them I experience myself as inferior and thus allow myself to go into
the weak character, instead of realizing the self-deception within the initial
starting point of defining a specific task/activity as inferior, not realizing
that inferiority only exist as a construct of the mind and thus is a lie, within
this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe the lie of
inferiority that I have been brained wash to believe through participation
within/as society and I commit myself to investigate all ideas/beliefs I have
been brainwashed to believe and to make sure that I am not walking within/as
self-abuse through participating within/as judgments/ideas/beliefs that do not
support all life within the principle of equality and oneness
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to participate in activities that I consider being inferior
due to fear of conflict, thus placing myself in a position of inferiority
within/as my own mind through my participation within the believe that "I don't
deserve to do this, this I beneath me" and within the fear of conflict not
standing up to change the position that I am about to step into, within this I commit
myself to investigate judgments towards activities and to clear myself from any
belief that some activities are more inferior than others within realizing that
if a task is necessary to be done to support life how can it be inferior? It can
only be inferior through the mind system placing things/activities/people on a
made up scale so we believe it as such, when in fact it is a lie
I commit myself to direct myself
and my actions within self-direction in self-awareness and thus not allow
myself to fall in the trap of the mind as believing myself a character
believing that I didn't not actually decide to do something but am doing it
anyway, within this I commit myself to take responsibility for everything I participate
within/as and within this commitment I realize that I am in fact responsible
for everything I do, and the character of the mind even when believing "I didn't
want to do this" is lying, thus I commit to be accountable for everything I
do and to do it within self-awareness that I am directing myself to do it, thus
not allow myself to go into the character of weakness
I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to define specific activities as inferior, not
realizing that the idea of activities being inferior to others is an idea I got
through social/cultural brain washed through my participation within/as society
and thus I must investigate within self-honesty all points/activities I consider
being inferior within realizing that a physical activity cannot be inferior in
reality but only within/as the mind, and thus I commit myself to stopping
myself as judgment of specific activities of being inferior and investigating
the source of this opinion/idea to not trust the brain washing I have accepted
as myself, I commit myself to stop all thoughts/ideas in regards to specific
ideas being inferior and looking at the practicality of the task at hand, thus
teaching myself to make decisions based on practicality within the principle of
equality as what is best for all, and not on opinions derived from/as the mind,
supporting inequality/abuse
When I believe I am incapable of completing the
task, in other words, when I am experiencing myself as inferior to the task,
then I go into the weak character, like giving up before even starting, like
paving the path towards my failure due to believing I cannot make it...
I commit myself to stop
myself as the mind when I see myself going into the incapable character within
realizing that it leads to the weak character and is not practical in any way, I
commit myself to stop myself as the incapable character and to see within
practical physicality what can be done, instead of focusing on what I cannot do
within self-belief/diminishment.
I will look down upon those that express themselves as weak within
the assumption that they are in fact weak as the expression of who they are and
I therefore perceive myself to be more powerful than them.
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to look down upon people that I perceive as weak, instead
of seeing that they are mirroring back to self how I see myself in fact, thus I
forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look down upon myself
within perceiving myself to be weak and to project this outwards into others
instead of taking self-responsibility and sorting myself out
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to indulge in feelings of power when I am faced with a
being that I perceive to be weaker than me, not realizing that I am defining
myself and my ability/power in comparison to another and not in actuality, thus
I commit myself to stop myself when I see myself indulging in a sense of power
due to belittling another through a perception of them being weak, and instead
to stand as supporting them as myself if/when I can.
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to participate/exist within the polarity of weak/power and
thus compare myself to others in order to define myself according to which side
of the polarity am I on in comparison to them, and thus if I am on the
"upper" side as I have define within/as my mind, I will feel
good/powerful, and if I am on the "lower" side I will feel bad/weak
and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move back and
forth from good to bad back to good experiences through the manipulation of the
mind sucking up all the energy that I am creating through this emotional
turmoil at the expense of myself as the physical body and the physical existence
as a whole, only to satisfy my mind created characters that are designed to feed
the mind and to maintain self as the mind, to never realize myself as life as
that will destroy myself as the mind and thus the mind fight for its survival
as I allow it to through my participation within as characters as polarities
such as weak/power.
When I judge someone as weak I am rejected/repelled by it, I won't
value the person, I will judge and blame them for not standing up, for whining,
for complaining, for asking for mercy, I will not appreciate them, I will see
myself as more than them...
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to experience myself repelled/rejected by people I perceive
to be weak, not realizing that I am projecting onto them my own self rejection
due to the self-judgment/belief of being weak, and thus I commit myself to when
experiencing myself repelling another due to being weak or any other
characteristic I judge them for, I stop and breathe, I realize that I am only
seeing myself through the mirror presented before me as the other, and thus I commit
myself to take responsibility as to what I am showing myself and to investigate
the point and to stop myself within self-direction as I've committed myself and
commit myself here again to walking a process of equality and oneness within
realizing myself as one and equal as what is best for all, and thus I do not accept
anything less than equality
I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself to within judging another for being weak and repelling them
within an experience of rejection towards them within myself, within this I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to project onto others my own self
rejection and to manipulate myself through such projection as judgment to hide
from myself the actual point of self-diminishment as the weak character I am
participating with, within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself to hide from myself through projection the points I am experiencing
myself as weak and within this I commit myself to investigate/forgive/change
all points I am participating within as weak character because I have seen the
abusive path of weakness and I will not walk there anymore.
I commit myself to stopping
thoughts/back chat of weakness within/as breath, until it is done and I am
standing within self-trust, stable, here.
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