Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Posted by
Maya R
at
9:00 AM
Labels:
best for all,
death,
desteni,
equality,
guilt,
judgment day,
manipulation,
regret,
self forgiveness,
self honesty,
self interest,
self responsibility,
shame,
shameless
So the first fear I must face is the fear of facing
myself, within understanding that I, as self as life, am not who I am programed
to be, I as life as self is not defined by the program, thus I must allow
myself to see the program as myself, to see myself for who I have allowed
myself to be, so that I can once and for all take responsibility and direct
myself as support to all life, as that is the only way that I will be able to
stand in the face of death without the shame I have now towards myself for not
supporting life, the shame for ignoring life and allowing abuse, allowing pain,
creating pain for my own personal interest, to get a good feeling that has been
programed into me as sugar, to keep me running towards the temptations of the
positive feelings and away from the negative, thus allowing myself to be a
slave to my feelings/emotions, a lifeless robot that is moved and directed by
cue, with no inner movement, no self will or self direction… is this who I want
to be? Is this how I am accepting myself as?
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by fear
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within/as shame
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself be ashamed of myself within taking who
I am personally within believing who I am, as how I have accepted and allowed
myself to be and become, defines me and thus I go into shame as stating to
myself that I am accepting myself as who I have defined myself as, instead of
actually investigating myself and making a directive decision as to who I want
to be from here on out, as living into the physical the principle of what is best for all within equality
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from myself within
the experience of shame, through not allowing myself to see/face myself due to
fear/resistance of experiencing shame towards myself, within that allowing
myself to be directed by the desire for "good" feelings while
avoiding the "bad" feeling such as shame, within this I forgive
myself for not accepting and allowing myself to use shame as what is actually
here as a tool of self support to assist me in seeing/realizing myself as who I
have accepted myself to be and from the point of seeing/realizing myself to
push myself to change, and within this to stop allowing myself exist within/as
shame.
within
this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by the
desire for "good" feelings and avoidance of "bad" feelings
within not realizing that this is how I have enslaved myself to/as the mind as
being directed blindly through good/bad feelings instead of directing myself as
what is best for all within self honesty
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within shame within not
realizing that who I am as that which I am ashamed of does not actually define
me as life, and thus I can, within self will/movement, change myself in to a
being that supports all life
I forgive
myself for not accepting and allowing myself to use the experience of shame as
a toll, to investigate that which I experience shame towards and to decide
within/as self honesty who I want to be within/as the point, considering all
life as a whole and not only my self interest, because I have realized that any
self interest that compromise life is of the mind as separation, and thus a
point that later comes up as shame towards self
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear shame within/as myself instead
of using it as self support to expose/face myself, to allow myself to see
within self honesty who I have allowed myself to become and take self
responsibility accordingly and change myself as what is best for all within
every point that I shame
I forgive
myself for not accepting and allowing myself to investigate points of shame
because I didn't want to let go of the value system I have been existing as
within points I experience shame towards, within this I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to defined myself according to the value system I
was taught by my parents/society and within that allow myself to judge myself
within the experience of shame when I do not stand as the value I was taught by
the system, not realizing the extent of mind control within that as suppressing
my self-expression, and not accepting myself as myself due to ideas of values
and morality that I have accepted without considering life within/as the
physical
I forgive
myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of myself within
believing that that which I am ashamed of defines me, not realizing that within
self will/movement I have the ability to change myself and to become a being
that I will not be ashamed of because I will know I am living according to what
I have decided to live as, within a self directed decision, and thus I realize
that participating within/as shame is a self manipulation to not take
responsibility and to actually change, but to prefer the self punishment in
form of the negative feeling as shame instead of actually changing within/as
the physical
I forgive
myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use shame as self manipulation
to get myself out of looking/investigating a point within/as myself due to not
wanting to take self responsibility, within the desire to remain within/as my
self interest while not considering all life as what is best for all but to
stay in my small bubble of self interest and shame not allowing myself to
change myself into/as support of all life
I commit
myself to stop myself within/as shame because I realize it is a self
manipulation keeping me from changing within existing as separation from myself
and the physical reality as life, and staying trapped in the mind as
shame/judgment
I commit
myself to show that shame is a self manipulation to get self out of taking self
responsibility within this physical reality and remaining trapped within/as the
mind as judgment and fear, within this I commit myself to take each point of
shame within me as a gift of life and forgive myself within making a directive
decision to change as what is best for all, because I know within self honesty
that only that which is best for all is actually best for me within the
consideration of living shamelessly and only within living that which is best
for all can I face myself at my judgment day and stand with no regrets for all
that I've accepted and allowed as myself
I commit
myself to look at all points of shame and to investigate within self honesty if
the point is valid within perspective of is it showing me myself as my
participation within a mind created
point of self interest, and thus I will change myself within/as it, or if the
point is not valid, within showing me a point I am judging myself for, due to
beliefs/values that I have accepted from my parents/society, and thus ,I look
at the value system I have placed and clear myself form the value system that
has directed me through allowing myself to judge myself and others within it.
I commit
myself to walk a day by day process of stopping the mind within/as breath
through writing, self forgiveness and self corrective statements, because I
have realized that being directed by the mind is not trust worthy as the mind
as all beliefs/emotions/feelings are a lie within not actually being here as
reality as the physical, and thus I realize that in order to birth myself as
life from the physical I must allow myself to let go all that is familiar
through my habit of participating with and believing the mind, and to
reestablish myself as life here within/as the physical in every breath
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